BEWARE! DAMN LENGHTY POST AHEAD!
Hello minions.
I know. It's rude to call my readers minions but doesn't it just make us feel closer? X)
Haha, I don't know about you, but I like to give my close ones (of similar age) rude names. Okay, they mightn't be rude but... they're basically just not "nice". But so far there are only a couple of people whom im not being nice to. You guys know who you are! :D
Anyway......
As my title states, im currently having a break from all my backaching studyings. Yes, for the first time, studying meant breaking my poor back. I felt so darn tired from studying that I even had suicidal intentions. You must be going, " GASP?! She wanted to suicide?!" Nah, don't worry, I haven't gone that insane. Haha. Keep reading on and you might just find out what exactly I did! :D (way to create suspense for my un-attention-attracting post ey? ;D)
Physical suicide? No, I don't have the guts to do it. I prefer to let nature deal with one's life and death. For those awful few days where I really felt like I couldnt take it anymore, I kept having this scenario playing on a loop in my brain. I really liked for nature to simply allow a reckless fool to just hit me with his/her car when I just so happen to be crossing the roads to or from college. Even if it was gonna cost me pain and sufferings or even my life, I couldn't care less because at those moments, I was just too reluctant to face another one of those papers that I mightn't be all that prepared for yet. It'll give me such perfect excuse to not be there for the exams! But oh whao, just so I know, I don't control nature. It's a good thing tho, cause I know I'll regret it so much in the end. Anyhow, there are just exams, right? It's not like they should make me wanna die anyway. I'd be too much of a coward if I couldnt even face EXAMS.
But, honestly, for now, exams are kinda a huge matter for me. Not wanting to sound nerdy, but what else is there for me to care if everything else in life has already been so well prepared for me (as much as i wish to be independant, im just blessed to be able to be less independant sometimes. :P). I'm thankful that I'm lucky enough to not have to worry about all other stuffs in life. However, sometimes it becomes very easy for me to overestimate the impact exams should have on my life and hence allowing such "imaginations" to grow in my head because of it since other things in life weren't my priority yet.
Sometime these crazy thoughts do creep into my mind but fortunately there are other things that could pull me away from the hands of Lucifer. I thank the video posted by charity : water that broadcasted the how kids from struggling nations travelled miles away from home just to get water. The saddest part is that the water they were retrieving weren't even clean water! Those were unsaved dirty swamp water they were travelling hundreds of kilometers for. Sadly, it's either that or no water at all. They didn't have any other option. God bless this generous dude who started charity : water who exchanged the chance of receiving gifts for his birthday for donations from people which would go 100% to drilling wells in these nations to allow their people to finally access clean water. The idea might still be vague to you, my apologies for that. You can log on to www.charitywater.org to get a clearer feel for what is being done to help these people tho. I registered to be a member but have zero idea what I can do to help. Maybe you would consider joining too?
Back to the story. The video. It was inspiring. It was motivating. It gave me strength to study again. I'm not exaggerating. The feeling was really like drinking energy boosters for me and I wished I was part of the project. It made me forget about my back pain as it wouldn't be anything compared to the things people there are going thru. And so, I put every distraction (facebook) out of my track and even managed to finish by 10.00 pm. It was truly a miracle as I thought I needed to burn the midnight oil to study for the two major papers I had for the following day. Really reminded me how we have to be grateful for what we have here and now, that video. It truly saved me from my reluctance to study. :')
Tada, i made it thru the last day of sem 2 exams and still surviving till this second despite the puffing and sniffing that still lingers me since the 2nd last day of the exams. It's not gonna stop me from enjoying my break from all the studying. I've got lots to do before the start of my next wicked revision session. Hehe. Will try to keep ya'll posted on what's going on in my uneventful-but-not-boring life (like u guys are interested? :P) as much as possible. Till then!
A song that I'm curretly indulging in : All Night Long - Alexandra Burke. Hope you guys like it too! :)
