I really don't understand what's wrong?
You and mood swings come and go like crazy.
Why do I have to put up with all your shit?
Who do you think you are?
So what if you are older than me?
Have you been acting like you are?
Have you behaved like you are worth my respect?
You make me feel like I'm your assistant? secretary? what ever it is... NO! I'M NOT!
Why is it that when things are not going right the fault is always on me?
Why can't you realise you might be the wrong one?
You start "lecturing" like how you hate to be lectured, and you dare say how you hate mum for always nagging you? GOOD. Now you are just like her. Instead of how you said you'd torture your kids for revenge (how stupid), congratulations, I feel like you have diverted that attitude to me. AND OH HELL, I HATE IT.
Have you ever realised that its your problem why you think she nags you too much?
You don't see me complaining about how she nags me, do you?
You want respect from me, but have you ever respected me?
What have you done to to deserve my respect?
I've always been giving in to you since young; have you ever realised and appreciated them?
I know you have your way to show your love to me, buying stuff for me, giving me things. but you don't understand I don't need those kind of love. I am not that kind of materialistic person. You can't BUY my love for you. I WANT EQUAL RESPECT.
Don't go all "this is the way I am, i change for no one" BULLSHIT.
If you continue on living your way your style, you know you'll be surrounded by people who TOLERATES you, not really LOVING you for who you are.
I don't say things to your face because I'm giving you the bullshit respect you want me to give you.
I admit I cant put up a well enough debate with an angry heart, I don't speak well when I am angry. But when I end it that way, it does not mean that you have won, so you don't have to show your shitty arrogant victory face, that only makes you look ignorant and stupid and my respect for you drops below that of what you have earned.
See how I angry I am at you right now?
But let me tell you, no matter how angry you have made me (no one has ever made me as mad as how you've made me, you know you are significant to me), I still love you. I don't hate you because you always make me angry. Think I'm bullshitting? Well, I can only say I am unlike you.
I know throughout your life, you have hated me numerous times. I know. I am not dumb. I'm not gonna hate you just because you hate me. I still love you because I know who you are to me. I don't HATE family.
I don't understand how you can go about hating the closest comfort you can get. HATRED is a very strong feeling. It grows on you. DON'T HATE YOUR FAMILY. You don't know what goes on behind the covers. I can say you're the luckiest one amongst all of us. Appreciate it. SHOW THAT YOU APPRECIATE IT. Don't expect us to know how you appreciate from the heart. TREAT OTHERS THE WAY YOU WANT TO BE TREATED! Hierarchy doesn't come in play like that. Don't abuse the respect I should have for you.
If words can be spoken in more gentler ways, don't choose to say it in ways that makes people uncomfortable. We hate it as much as you hate it. The world doesn't revolve around you. You know it, and you understand this. But please put this knowledge into practice and don't make people feel like you're so self-centred.
