Evolution

It's funny how things changed time after time, even funnier when u realised you've taken a hop, skip and a jump back to square one!

I've just came to realise a fact! Way back when I was in early primary, when we had to write compositions on what our ambitions were to be, I decided that I wanted to be a scientist. But as time gradually passed, I found that rather out of reach for me knowing my own abilities and unwilling to stress myself so much, so I didn't think much about that and took a turn to the art side of things. But look at me now! :D I'm actually on the route of becoming someone science-y like a scientist! (that is if I don't fall into any gaps in between this pathway to "impossible") haha...

Or am i not thinking right? hmm....

Life and it's unexpected! =))

Never.

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got that whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone
I'm spinnin round
And deep inside
My tears I'll drown
I'm losin grip
What's happenin
I strayed from love
This is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what, you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
'Cause it's hurtin me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know its no more
I should have never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us part
I didn't give it to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart

How did I get here with you I'll never know
I never meant to let it get so personal
And after all I tried to do
To stay away from lovin' you
I'm broken hearted I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry~

-581-

The Blind Smile.

As the doors to the upcoming chapter of your life opened, you struggled, with so much concern, trying as hard as possible not to be in others' way as you made your way through the uprising crowd going towards similar destinations. Every single move you've made, you had to sense so considerately with your extended metallic arm, not expecting aid from anyone else, as it IS usually accompanied by luck.

Aware or not about the hundreds of focuses on you, slowly, yet intendedly, you twisted the ends of your lips delicately upwards, which to observers was obvious, that it was filled with much uncertainty and fear. It was as if you've sensed compassionate smiles that never were visible to you, that's why you triggered your smile. Nonetheless, all that was actually in front of you were just puzzled faces filled with questions towards your unpredicted action.

It might be because you didn't want people having, in their hyper-active discriminating minds, impressions that you were anyhow alien by the way you had to move and was trying to make peace and harmony. It might be because you were afraid you weren't smiling back to the person who was kind enough to smile to you too. Or, it might be because you were making the most of you efforts to project politeness towards the compassion you sensed people around you was generously giving you, which to you was undesireable. Maybe, that was why doubt filled your smile.

Whatever the reasons are behind your motivational smile (it got me thinkin' a lot, seriously!), I do hope that the life you possess is a remarkable one and may heartwarming smiles from deep inside your heart outshine your smiles of tremble.

May god bless you.

(Not the time to be religion-ist)

What's my college like?

Let's see, it has been.... *calculating...* ONLY 5 DAYS since I've been to school?????

My gosh, it really does feel like I've been to school for ages now = =

Well, for those who want's to nose around my business here in new-city Perth, I haven't been doing much actually. I've been enrolled to this college called Canning College, just beside Curtin University and the subjects courses I'm taking are ELACS (English Language and Aboriginal Culture Studies) Module A & B, Chemistry, Human Biology, Mathematics 3C/D, and Mathematics Specialist 3C/D.

Uh huh~ A total of 5 subjects, but I might drop Human Bio or Mathematics Specialist if they get too hard tho, because they are not one of 'em pre-required courses to be able to study Genetics and Biotech. Only able to drop 1 tho, cause I need a minimum of 3 courses excluding ELACS (cause it's compulsary).

This whole week meant nothing else but school, and school works. Yeap, already had work on the 1st day, it's like they start late but they gotta rush everything now = =

I doubted myself in my first Chem class, thinking I doomed cause I was no where as fast as this two girls sitting beside me, but it turned out that I'm considered normal phased, they are just too genius! WHAT A RELIEF!

Plus, i pity the other classes who got really slow teachers, cause I got a taste of how it felt like having one for my first Chem class because we got a windows98-speed-substitution-teacher for my permanent teacher who had to attend a funeral ( so soi man! ), and it was z's all the way. He's boring! Not to mention, he kept up with the geniuses only. THANK GOD HE'S NOT TEACHING ME!!

However, our permanent teacher's really strict on a few things, like mobile phones, puctuality, shoes ( we need to wear closed ones for all science subjects) and whatever. But he's nice, the kind of teacher I wanted :D Happy happy HAPPI!

Other courses were ok... Oh! Let me tell u more about the school system!

We got to go to the course's respective rooms every period! No lockers! Meaning, we have to carry the heavy bags around for every period like crazy. Not to mention, if we have afternoon classes, we need to bring our own food cause the cafeteria food sucks till ugh.. donno how to say. haha... So, long lines at the microwaves every lunch.

But the good thing about this school is that we international students get to use this ISO (international student's office). We can refill our bottles not with tap water but filtered water, get to use the fridge there, get to hang out on the caoches there, get your mail there, ask for help and yada yada yada~ :D

Well, that kinda sums up what I felt about my school college (need to get use to that!) these 5 days. I might have a change of mind some time later. Will, try to keep my blog alive too, but looks like A LOT of people do not blog much nowadays. Can we blame facebook and twitter for that? LOL. sui bian la~ :D

Ciao beautiful people!