We are parting.

The trial exams had already started. I guess I would spend most of my time cracking myself up with all the studying I HAVE TO do from now on till the last day of O's. So I guess it's "adios~" for now until, someday, in this near future (maybe in a week or so... Could be months too O.O... depends la~ Haha), when I find something worth blogging about. So " tata" bloggy. see you soon hopefully. Don't grow too much mould or spiderwebs o, cause I don't wanna clean u up xD

haha. Good luck to everyone else out there who will be having their exams. Good bye!

Your faithful,
blogger 581.

The Blue Ribbon

I've seen this mail a few times before
And i thought it was just for "hibur"
Never have i thought that it meant so much more
For the million of children who died before four.

Excuse me for this once, for lifting the following from a chain-mail.

I just had too as it seriously made my heart sank

(especially the last paragraph!)

and i hope it lessens the evil in you!

Prepare for a chill down your spine.

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My name is Sarah
I am but three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see.

I must be stupid,

I must be bad,

what else could have made

my daddy so mad?

I wish I were better,

I wish I weren't ugly,

then maybe my Mommy

would still want to hug me.

I can't speak at all,

I can't do a wrong

or else I'm locked up

all the day long.

When I awake

I'm all alone

the house is dark

my folks aren't home.

When my Mommy does come

I'll try and be nice,

so maybe I'll get

just one whipping tonight.

Don't make a sound!

I just heard a car

my daddy is back

from Charlie's Bar.

I hear him curse

my name he calls

I press myself

against the wall.

I try and hide

from his evil eyes

I'm so afraid now

I'm starting to cry.

He finds me weeping

he shouts ugly words,

he says its my fault

that he suffers at work.

He slaps me and hits me

and yells at me more,

I finally get free

and I run for the door.

He's already locked it

and I start to bawl,

he takes me and throws me

against the hard wall.

I fall to the floor

with my bones nearly broken,

and my daddy continues

with more bad words spoken.

'I'm sorry!' I scream

but its now much too late

his face has been twisted

into unimaginable hate.

The hurt and the pain

again and again

oh please God, have mercy!

oh please let it end!

And he finally stops

and heads for the door,

while I lay there motionless

sprawled on the floor.

My name is Sarah

and I am but three,

tonight my daddy

murdered me...

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There are thousands of kids out there just like Sarah. And you can help.

It sickens me to my soul, and if you just read this and don't pass it on I pray for your forgiveness, because you would have to be one heartless person to not be affected by this email. And because you are affected, do something about it!! So all I am asking you to do is take some time to send this on and acknowledge that this stuff does happen, and that people like her dad do live in our society , and pray for child abuse to wither out and die, but also pray for the safety of our youth. Please pass this poem on as a Blue Ribbon Against Child Abuse because, as crazy as it might sound, it might just indirectly change a life.

P.S. Do not make this into a cursed chain-letter. The previous ones i received were cursed saying, Sarah will come after u if u do not pass it on. Puh-lease~it's a good thing spreading this to make people realize, not to scare them off! ok?

Love,

581

The old days

I miss the long boring ride to Miri.
I miss the silly jokes we used to tell.
I miss the late night talks.
I miss you~
Don't kill me xD
Can't help it.
Never been apart for so long before since birth... So just let me!
haha... i know... I'm talking to myself again.


X)

mind the lousy resolution

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Random: I lovePRETTY-but-CREEPY-looking porcelain dolls.

Pretty!

"U can stare at me when I'm in bed... I don mind... Just don't talk to me... hahahaha!"

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Music

It's gonna be a short post.

REAL SHORT!



How i wish I had the chance to "touch" music at that age~

End.

Yours truly,
581 x)

Confessions

Have you ever wondered what kind of person you really are?
Are you 100% sure the person you think you are is the real you?

I wonder if there ever was a thingamajig that could evaluate every single characteristic of every individual.
If there is so, then the world would be less complicated, don't you think?

I personally am not really sure of the kind of person I really am. Sometimes, I can't even be totally true to my own self. Is it just me or are there other people facing these too?

There are a lot of things that I have no idea why I restricted myself from doing. Even just minor stuff, like starting conversation on Msn with, ummm, I don't know, 'hi-bye' friends just to ask bout daily stuff, like "hey~ how have u been?" or "wuu.. i see your personal message x]", I can never do it. I would rather people come look for me than I look for them. Now that's something I don't find good about myself....

Ionno, could it be that, to me, it is just too wierd to go up to not so friend de people and talk random stuff? Does that make me unfriendly? Am i not friendly? I know i can go to anyone of my classmates and just say something totally random like "hahaha, ur zips down!" (it's just so funny when they think that's real~ hahaha :'D )... But if the 'tie' gets losser than that, I'm sorry, I just can't do that.

*Hey, but that sounds totally normal eh...hahaha... what am i saying? Lemme scratch that whole paragraph.

Ionno, could it be that, to me, it is just too wierd to go up to not so friend de people and talk random stuff? Does that make me unfriendly? Am i not friendly? I know i can go to anyone of my classmates and just say something totally random like "hahaha, ur zips down!" (it's just so funny when they think that's real~ hahaha :'D )... But if the tie gets losser than that, I'm sorry, I just can't do that.

hahaha...

I mean, like starting a conversation with people just to talk bout random stuff, I can't help but to think a lot, like "Will they think I'm annoying?" or "Will they think i come with a purpose?" when I initially just wanted to be friendly. So, in the end, I'd just prefer not to say anything ... Depressing huh?

And when I have troubles or just plainly want to talk bout feelings, I can never go to anyone for consultants. I'd rather just think about it and try my best to forget everything as soon as possible. My friends would say, "don't trust me la isit?''...
well, it's not that i don't trust u but most of the people are like what the pic below says.

I just need time to see whether you are "worthy" enough to lemme confide everything to u, no la, joking. XD

Haha, just wanna see if you really wanna listen de or not. Sometime is just too 死要脸to let ppl know xP

So if you think I have no worries and am a happy-go-lucky person? Man, you're so damn wrong. There's not a person out in this complicated world who doesn't have a tad of a worry in their minds!

Now, that's another down point for me. x( There are much more stuff that I prefer not to do and I have no idea why. It could be like what I've said earlier, too 死要脸~ Sometimes this 死要脸-ness creates a gap between my friends and I, not really liking it lo. What to do? 我就是这样！so, if you wanna be friends with me, you will just have bare with it. xD

But I don't mind listening to other people's problems tho. I am more than happy to lend an ear and let them know that I care. Cause i really do, unless i don't like u~ x)

Just don't make me say what I really don't want to say, I will feel very 为难~ :(
Then again, sometimes, I might tell if you keep on asking!
Hahaha... Whao... How complex am i xD

Hey, I've learnt a new magic trick. I'll show you guys...

Look carefully at these words...

Don't miss any one of it...

Slowly scroll down...

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When I count to 3...

You'll magically be at the edge of the end...

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XD

It's 1.49 am. And I'm still awake~

See the title above?
I CANT SLEEP!
I din drink no coffee or tea... Why can't I sleep now?
Isit because there is too much going on my mind?
Hmm...
If there is.. Then what's in this piece of meat of mine leh?
Haha.. Of course I know... And u don't~
It's my brain and not yours how shud u know? Unless ur a mindreader or smth~
LOL. Jahat eh! Just joking x)
Haha..
This staying-up-late makes me hungry... But I'm lazy to go get food now. haha..I know San jie will go: ' you lai liao you lai liao' haha
Ow no~ it's making me bananas too... It's like I'm talking to myself.
Ayer~ zen de shi!

Haha.. Speechless me is gonna sign off in Three... Two... One!
*poof*
581 is now offline.

Prom, Friends and Work + my amazing brain

Hi beautiful people :)
My first day of holiday has finally arrived.
Did totally nothing today, except chatting and eating, so far~
Don't be misdirected, I do have toones of holiday homeworks to finish, one pretty cool in particular tho, just don't feel like doing it today XP
The Bm homework, we actually submit our work to our teachers blog eh~ cool no?
Haha, enough school stuff, don wanna touch school stuff so soon :P

So how's everyone?
I'm currently rotting lo. Haha.
And and and.... I''ve just notice how impatient i can be eh~ tak boleh la!
haha... next next next..

Next topic: Prom

I'm so excited for the upcoming Prom night, that's gonna be held on the 28th of November.
So, chms 09's F5 students ah... Don't balik kampong too soon o. You don wanna miss what we've plan for you guys.
It's gonna be "A Night To Remember" y'all!
You'd be expecting smth pretty much diff from what you've seen before, so do prepared to be amazed~ XD
Haha, tickets will be be open for sale when school reopens so, get those cash ready or feel left out being the only one not buying them tickets! XD
P.S. for those who wanna get a free entrance, now you have an alternative! Just go get us a sponsor of atleast $100 and you can get in for free! =)


People had been talking bout buying prom dresses eh~
Shud i get one too?
The problem is, I have quite a few dresses already in my closet.
I adore one of them quite much... Just that...
I SAW THIS OTHER DRESS WHICH I REALLY WANT O...
Plus, that dress i have, wore it many time liao eh... hai~
Shud i get it?
hmmm...
SHHhhh...da jie, san jie... don mention to mummy i wanna buy another one o..
Later she bomb me ah... hahaha...
Say i waste money again...

Holiday liao eh~.. Er jie's coming back tmr... but a fren is leaving...
It's like gaining and lossing smth at the same time...
hahaha... it's like X) and =( at the same time.. haha
The cool part is that they're going and leaving to the same place eh!
=]

Hung out with friends during "work"!
It's amazingly fun to work with friends who have the same purpose...
The only headache is too get them out of playing their games... -_-
The fun you'll have working with game-addicts XD
LOL.

hmmm.... really worship this brain of mine... The things i can remember with this piece of meat is like only 30% of normal human being.. hahaha.. i can forget so many things!
The reason why i said this is because i really forgot what i wanted to continue blogging about liao..
And it was just a few minutes ago....
Cooll eh~
hahaha

A picture to colour up this post

"Wow, that rainbow's pretty~"
"Should I grab onto that rainbow or should i swing back down?"
"I guess i should swing back down, cause it won't hurt that much when the time comes, cause i know I'm gonna fall in the end anyways. Everybody knows that rainbows don't last long~"
"Let's maintain everything in this pace!"

Lol... random


So i guess this is goodbye now..
See you guys in the next post!
Toodles~

Replies:
Judy: You know how i do~. ;) sounds familiar?!
Cindy: hahah... yes... im 70% kid... hahah.. apparently, I'm moody too...
Jimmy: hi~
Rui: haha.. yeap!